這些日子. syaD esehT

新年過了... 情人節也快過了...
轉眼間就甚麼都這樣過去了
很簡單的... 很快速的... 一轉眼的...
咻

和往年一樣 床單是要筆直的 房間要是一塵不染的 地板要是乾淨舒爽的
玫瑰紅房間裡停留的文字記憶還是那一頁 所有的畫面都是鮮明的刻印著
彷彿一切還只是昨天 其實春夏秋冬 都已走過一遍
感慨一年比一年增加 思緒一年比一年繁密 生活一年比一年複雜

很喜歡圍火爐 雖然這裡是熱的 可是還是喜歡
喜歡新年只有一個原因 因為可以看到很多的人 很多的自己人
家裡會變成 連房間都不夠分 的地方 走到那裡都有人
雙人床 就真的是兩個人睡的了
visitation is nice... 看看老人家 開開玩笑 抱抱小孩 微微笑

總覺得 有些人 的一生 還是比別人過得幸福的許多
不需要為生活忙碌的 奔波 操勞 擔心
不需要自己站在自己的腳上 奮力的往上爬
想要讀書 就讀書 也不管家裡辛不辛苦 還專挑國外的唸
要出國就出國 一個國家走完一個國家
需要工作時 也任性的選擇自己喜愛卻沒甚麼幫助的工作
活到這把年紀 時時刻刻都在耍任性
因為生活太舒適
作為這樣的人 幸福嗎?

很幸福的 說 自己
活到現在 真的覺得自己受到庇佑
過得比許多人要幸福的多
生活雖然繁雜 可是卻要比別人簡單的多
不用勞碌苦命 就過得比別人輕鬆
真的是很幸福的呀

情人節呀 那個阿達 既然會想到要慶祝
金莎巧克力 + 狗公仔 很不錯的啦
往年都沒有慶祝 今年人不在既然都會買禮物
肯定是做了虧心事 XD
很開心丫
其實這個人真不錯 乾脆賴定他好了
現在過得很幸福 偶爾吵吵小架 最近在討論新家裝潢
其實 真的 有你 即使是之前那個簡陋小屋 即使洗手間要打傘遮陽
真的 都很幸福 情人節快樂

玫瑰紅色文字記憶庫 紀錄的很多
真是那個時候早就該放下了 不明白為甚麼後來還在糾糾纏纏的
好像給個機會你去傷害自己 結果還不只是心靈上的傷害
你是應該對不起 因為你帶走的東西太多了 給的太少
本來收藏的是漂亮的 因為執意添加了那些
結果只剩下不堪的回憶 有些東西 真的不是加多了 就會漂亮的
如果你找得到這裡 請你不要再試圖連絡了
反正像霓所說 一開始 就 不是 朋友
不用msn 不用聊電話 你要真有甚麼事 就寫email
you know how you can get me... well

還有些東西阿 真的心淡了 以為用心經營的 就一定會開花結果
只是忘了 不是所有的東西都和裁種一樣的 也不是所有花 只要種了就會花兒一朵朵的
某些人努力過了 被忽略 某些人小求過了 被重視
世間上 本來就沒有甚麼事 是 公平 的 以為自己努力過了
殊不知 在別人眼中 根本就是一坨屎 甚麼也不是
那一剎那的一瞬間 只懂得 用 文字 埋葬驚訝

有一些人 只是看到自己 懂得自己努力過了 別人努力你看見了嗎?
有一些人 只是看到自己 自己的情人 別人的陪伴 是多餘

原來 不管在甚麼圈子 都是有背後語 小圈子 那裡都有阿
長到了一個歲數 煩惱的東西 就是那個時候的 都一樣的
大家想要的都是簡單 為甚麼大家卻把東西都複雜化呢?
不明白... ...

要回去了 回來了一陣子 就會想念那裡
好像真的是家裡了

::晚安::
我 變 懶惰 了

辯白

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say
But I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you say Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
Woahooo woah

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it’s too late to apologize, a yeah

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

快樂的結局

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,B
ut not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

晚安 晚安

You left me hanging from a thread we once swung from together
I’ve lick my wounds but I can’t ever see them getting better
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same

Her hair was pressed against her face, her eyes were red with anger
Enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behavior
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh

I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa

The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember
The way it feels to be alive
The day that he first met her
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same

You make me think of someone wonderful, but I can’t place her

I wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh

I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right

So much to love
So much to learn
But I won’t be there to teach you, oh
I know I can be close
But I try my best to reach you

I’m so sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa, oh…
Yeah

I'm a Friend You're a Friend

I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath (hold on)
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel all right?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder once again, cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

1973

Simona
You're getting older
Your journey's been
Etched on your skin
Simona
Wish I had known that
What seemed so strong
Has been and gone
#I would call you up every Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always beIn a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"#
Simona
Wish I was sober
So I could see clearly now
The rain has gone
Simona
I guess it's over
My memory plays our tune
The same old song
#x3
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973

cleaning...

房間總算是告一段落了
新年大掃除是一種考驗
考驗你的記憶 考驗你的心臟
考驗你的笑容 考驗你的眼淚
都是一種回憶的巡禮

某些東西某些文字某些故事
那個時候那個地點那個發生
都是非常在意非常關心的時候
可是現在回過頭看的時候
只剩下一抹微笑

不知道那裡看過
等事情都過去了以後
就會發現 留下的都是笑容
現在覺得 還真的涅

我是分割線分割線是我我是分割線分割線是我我是分割線分割線是我我是分割線分割線是我我是分割線

把你傳給我的簡訊
那些小心翼翼收藏的簡訊
一條一條的刪掉了
在你身邊和你聊天的時候
就一一的刪掉了

衰

真的是衰到一個地步
過年嘹的話可不可以給我好日子過?

我會好好去拜太歲的... ...
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